How I See It
Wow, I never thought I'd get here! Life is a journey that no two people ever take the exact same way. Some people take the journey with so much grace and poise. They seem to make the right choices, do the right things. Maybe it's because they're confident or just maybe they don't have the testicular fortitude to take risks, haha. No roller coasters for these people.
On the other side, there are those that make others hold their breath every time they speak. People are always wondering what is going to happen next. Nothing is ever done in a "normal" way. These people just can't get off that darn triple loop coaster.
And of course, we always have one that marches to the beat of a different drummer. Yes, I'm quirky, weird and crazy Auntie B. I'm freaky, strange and there aren't many things I do in a traditional way. Well, Guess what?
I don't care! It took me 50 years to semi-understand myself and another almost 3 years to accept who I am. Never in a million years did I ever think I'd ever say that I'm sort of cool. Yes, I've made some huge mistakes. Some of my mistakes have hurt others and I'll regret that forever. I've admitted them and have asked for forgiveness. Some of them have forgiven me yet others are still treating me like a kitten kicker who beats up the elderly.
Honestly, I'm none of those things. I'm kind, funny, caring and I'll admit I'm sensitive. Because of my past, I can be defensive and am always waiting for the ball to drop. At 52 I'm nowhere near where I should be career-wise, financially and we won't even begin to discuss my love life.
There have only been 2 consistencies in my whole life which are #1, my Congenital Hypothyroidism and the struggles that have come with it. #2, My refusal to be a quitter. Maybe fantasy but I still believe that somehow someday I'll be able to say "Bite Me" to those that had me believing I was all of the nasty labels.
Over the course of my journey not only have I realized I'm a pretty cool person but that I've actually got a couple of talents I'd love to share.
Oh, I mustn't forget that my father told me before he passed away that I have Charisma.